A Quiet Kind of Goodbye

 

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By Sekinat Abdulwakil 

There’s a certain silence that sits between people who once shared everything, a silence that doesn’t come from anger or bitterness, but from distance. Not the loud kind of distance that storms off in fury, but the quiet kind that slowly builds over time, like mist creeping across a familiar path until one day, you can’t see each other clearly anymore.

No one prepares you for that kind of loss. We’re taught to expect breakups, heartbreaks, dramatic fallouts. But no one talks enough about the gentle unraveling of friendships, the ones that don’t necessarily end with shouting or betrayal, but with soft pauses; postponed replies, half-finished conversations, the gradual fading of warmth that once felt endless.

We call it “drifting apart,” but sometimes that phrase feels too neat, too casual. Because when you truly love someone, a friend, a sister, someone who’s held your hand through seasons of laughter, letting go doesn’t feel like a drift. It feels like shedding a part of yourself you weren’t ready to lose.

It’s not easy to admit that love isn’t always enough. Sometimes, people grow in opposite directions, not because one has changed for the worse, but because both have changed, period. Growth is rarely synchronized. One person begins to question things the other still believes in. One learns a new language for pain, while the other is still learning to name it. The things that once bonded you,  shared interests, shared wounds, shared dreams, may no longer align the same way. And yet, we hold on. We hold on because loyalty feels sacred. Because we promised forever in those long midnight talks. Because we think that love, if pure enough, should stretch to fit every version of us. But love, as time keeps teaching, is not always stretchable. 

There’s no ceremony for this kind of ending. No clear moment when you can say, “That was the day we stopped being close.” It’s quieter than that. You wake up one morning and realize you no longer reach for their opinion first. You scroll through their posts and feel warmth but not the urge to comment. You remember something they’d find funny but decide to just laugh alone. It’s not resentment. It is release.

Still, it hurts, deeply and stubbornly. Because these are the people who’ve seen us messy, unfiltered, undone. The ones who knew our family stories, our tiny victories, our private insecurities. Losing that kind of closeness feels like losing history. It’s a kind of grief that hides under calm acceptance, but it’s grief all the same.

We don’t often name that grief because we fear it’ll make us seem ungrateful. After all, shouldn’t we be happy we ever had such a bond at all? But gratitude and mourning can coexist. You can be thankful for what someone gave you and still ache because it’s over. You can bless the memory and still wish it lasted longer. You can love them, even now, from a distance that feels both peaceful and painful.

The truth is, outgrowing people we love doesn’t mean we’ve failed them. It means we’ve honored our growth. It means we’ve stopped shrinking to fit what once made sense. There’s courage in recognizing that something beautiful can still be complete, even if it did end.

Maybe this is what adulthood really is: learning that love doesn’t always come with permanence. Learning to carry people softly in our memories without forcing them into our present. Learning that we can wish someone well without wishing them back. And maybe friendship, true friendship, is about holding that understanding with tenderness. About knowing that we can love fully and still walk away with grace. That we can clap for each other from afar. That we can say, “Thank you for being who you were to me, when I needed you,” and mean it with no bitterness in our throat.

Some connections return after time and distance. Some don’t. Either way, the love remains valid. The laughter was still real. The bond still mattered. What changes is the space it now occupies not as an active presence, but as a lesson, a warmth, a quiet echo that reminds us we are capable of deep connection. It’s okay to outgrow people you love. It’s okay to evolve past shared versions of yourself. It’s okay to let memory do the holding while you move forward lighter.

Because love doesn’t always end in goodbye.

Sometimes, it simply turns into gratitude.